I'm really, really NOT DEAD.

Still just really lazy. And I definitely did not come back "tomorrow." But here we are now. Let's get up to speed here. What's been going on?

First of all, I've been really stressed out and bummed with the direction a few things are going in, mostly my life and lack of career direction. The worst part of this is that I have a very clear, concise, extremely feasible way forward. I would like to be doing audio design for Red Storm Entertainment here in Cary, a job - nay, career - that would be extremely fun and quite lucrative. In order to get to that place I need some kind of degree in audio design and since the School of Communication Arts offers exactly that and has close ties with Red Storm, you would think that would be the place I would be going.

Well, I would be. If I had about $65,000. Which I do not. There is no possible way to get into that school without the aid of parents until you're 24 (I turn 22 in June) and private loans aren't gonna happen - I'd even be willing to take out that much and just pay it all back the rest of my life at this point, but I can't get 'em. I really just want to be in school and nothing else. I don't want to have to work while I'm in school, which is where that figure comes from. This doesn't come out of laziness, this comes out of experience - if I have to work, I'm going to have to work constantly, and it's going to take a toll on school work. Plus the hours I have now are solid and I couldn't keep my current job whilst being in school because I can't be two places at once. It's really fucking frustrating, and even moreso when all of my friends, who go to that school, regularly skip class because they want to sleep in or play WoW or "don't feel like it," to the point that one of them actually got dropped from the very class I am dying to take. They have a gift and they don't realize it.

Enough about that. Music is going well, but not in the same way it has before. I haven't been devoting much attention to my solo efforts of late, and while I've started recording for that new album, all of it's gone. My friend's external hard drive, which had two or three songs in various stages of completion, decided to fail on us. Don't ask me why he hasn't sent it off yet, especially considering it broke just under warranty and probably isn't any more.

But anyways, the music I'm talking about now is the new band I've started. Kind of the same badn I referred to a few posts back, but kind of not. Same ideas, same concept, and brainchilded by me and one of the same people, but the lineup has been completely rotated. We have another new drummer, as well as a newly-hired bassist and keys player, and all of these dudes kick holy ass. We have settled on the name Flight Of Osiris for now but I really have very quickly started to fucking hate that name and I'm hoping that we change it. If we don't, oh well. The music is GREAT and I find myself looking forward to weekly practice. I'm also looking forward to it being summer so we can practice more often than that.

Beh. There's been a host of other bullshit going on but at risk of this sounding like a goddamn diary, I'm not going into any of it. I'm out this bitch for now.